loaded gun.

Dont go out with a loaded gun,
For some girls are just playin.
Tho you can never really tell with a loaded gun..
Dont go out with a loaded gun!!
It may seem a good idear to you shot the wrong one!!

And so it seems the same words only a diffrent song, to be added too at a later date.

Dont you hold out your hand,
Because its hurts when you do,
I would go tonight but I know I would only bump into you,
And as much as I want to I know that would never do,
No it would never do.

And if in the night you feel alone,
You could call, but as much as i wish you would,
We both know with out any dout,
Its better left well alone.
Someone else can call your name,
I tryed but these tablets wont ease this pain.
So im lost in someones elses arms,
But it would never do,
No it would never do,
And only you could ease my mind,
I would call tonight but we both know that would never do..

And so it seems the same words only a diffrent song,
And I want to come back but I feel i may of been gone to long,
And these tablets wont help my mind, I want to sleep all the time,
But night time offers no release,
Cause in my heart I cant tame this beast in me.
A drink to much and I lose control.

A bitter End..

Its gone from a possibility to a definitely maybe.
I've never been so wrong,
It's hard to hold on.
The make up of a clown slowly wearin off,
It was my last defence, my armor,
And a pillow to catch a tear
Late night thinkin things a mother should never hear...

Doom.......

Maken pizza for one, every things wrong. The nite offers no escape, for sleep is so far away. Same shit, long, wrong diffrent day. But its still the same, for nothing changes, the world turns yet we stay in our same places. Diffrent faces offer no clues. Its another Monday nite and im still sad and blue wishing for rite but with wrong I have to make do.

Its not you its me............

Lay the ghosts to rest
for they are to close to the bed tonight.
And can you hear the rattle off the passing cars.
I havent loved in such a long time i am not sure if i am off any use anymore.
Passed my best and seen better days..
Well could two wrongs make a right?
And could i be a man tonight?
You say you arnt worried,
but i can see rejection plays hard on your mind.
And if i was to tell you it happend before
could you belive my lies?
Its not the best way,
and I pass out..
It seems i left you with some awful douts..

If you know when to stop, why dont you stop?

Do you rember last night?
You threw up and told me I'm shite
I tryed to click my heels three times
But nothing happend,
and you say nothing else matters.
And I would make my point,
But your to sick to hear me..
If you dont know when to stop
Then why do you start this every weekend lately?

I Wont Heal.....

You hurt like a scar that wont heal,
tryin hard but its impossable to deal...
with these things,
these things..
the best of times are gone
and its hard to hold on,
but sure we'll drink the night away
and pretend our worse fears are forgotten,
till we're alone....


You hurt like a scar that wont heal,
tryin hard but its impossable to deal...
with these things,
these things..
the best off times are gone,
and rember you said i would never be alone,
but i am tonight,
as always and ever,
to scared to lift the phone to scared to walk the streets.
To scared to listen to sound of my own heart beat..

You hurt like a scar that wont heal,
tryin hard but its impossable to deal...
with these things,
these things..
the best off times are gone,
and im scratchin to much for my skin to heal.
same shit diffrent week,
same head melt and heartach.


You hurt like a scar that wont heal,
tryin hard but its impossable to deal...
with these things,
these things..
the best off times are gone,
and i threw away my rights and chances so long, ago.
for your touch you just dont know,
how far my mind would go.

but

You hurt like a scar that wont heal,
tryin hard but its impossable to deal...
with these things,
these things
the best off times are gone,
and at times i wonder,
but thought got me here in the first place,
and it seems to have provided me with the worse case..
So it's best to let go while im waitin on the phone,
but you never call...