The dog wants to go to bed

 The dog wants to go to bed.

I'm too lost in my head. 

Shadow boxing my old fights. 

Blind to my own downward spiral

That lead me here tonight, 

My hurt leading the way. 

I invited it to stay. 

We don't talk. 

Awkward, 

Looking at my phone or the wall. 

Too hurt to forgive, 

Too lost in the dark. 

Not too many chances, 

Drowning in my own sadness. 

Scared of things I can't see. 

Picking a scab that won't heal. 

Sleeping late, 

Finding it hard to have a reason to get up.

I'm my own worse enemy 

But I don't give up. 

There is more to life, 

Got to be. 

Soothe someone 

And use my hurt as their therapy. 

Another drink isn't the remedy. 

Face not recognized

 Dreaming's cheating,

What are you at this weekend?

Self harm and over thinking.

Deappreciation.

But if I'm lucky some self medication.

Wondering if it's a cry for help?

Or am I just missing

A different world.

Longing to log out.

No ads for things I think about.

No friends requests

From spamming djs

Latest mix I never listen to anyway.

The quiet one from school,

Your sure would be a

Murderer one day.

Ads for things we don't need.

Posts from people

Who we never before seen.

The next viral vid, joke

Meme or something.

While we sit alone watching

Dreaming's cheating

Fluoxetine, 

Numbs you til everything is fine.  

No downs yet no Ups, 

No escape, 

No one to wake up beside in the morning 

And no help to or reason to sleep.  

Dreaming's cheating. 

What are you doing this weekend?

Self harm and over thinking! 

And I ask 

How do you know if it's a cry for help?  

And who will hear when your  

Arej ust by yourself?  

So I close the window it's cold. 

Another beer to soothe the soul. 

Lick the bag and try to keep some control.

For hell is a damaged person

Who has lost control. 

Eternal fire in a addicts eyes.

As they no longer get high, 

Just get further away from themselves. 

And closer to hell.

It's easy to laugh til the moment

You also fall. 

Only love

 I can do you what you need.

Can you tell me why it hurts to breath?

Why I'm lost in my own company?

How I lost touch with my own family?

How the things I enjoyed 

Don't really matter to me?

Why the harder I try the deeper the rut?

Why the sniff is my only love? 

Hole

 Hole in the soul

Against the tide

9 to 5 blues

Dead mans shoes

But that's alright

Because we can't sleep at night.

Up all night we got demons to fight.

The call of the void keeps us awake.

The bitter taste of a wanted loves 

Like bitter lemonade.

The sun cracks a new day.

Make the most of every moment

They grow to quick,

Last call at the hug and pint

As my nose drips.

Excitement as the taxi is pretty quick. 

Try to get the back seat,

As talking I don't want to be the one

Asking the driver are they busy

Or long into his shift. 

Finally get where we plan to b, 

The party is in full swing.

Grabbed by the hand

And jump in with both feet. ,

Its okay, I have a warm embrace. 

So we spend the nite 

Talking shite,

As we knew would be part of the plan

Then on to puttinf the world to right

Taking up resident in the kitchen,

Which was

Amazing to say the lest

Til the sun comes up

To remind us we have to leave.

The random

 There's a point 4,

That keeps on calling me. 

Could sniff a gram 

Pretty easily. 

Every party I make, 

Everyones my best friend. 

All great to the drugs wear off again. 

Maybe in a hour I'll settle down. 

Another taxi and I'm gone again. 

The random at the party I'll always be. 

Everyones my friend 

Telling me, 

Your the best craic, 

My new best friend. 

Then my phone bleeps 

And I'm gone again. 

Maybe in a hour I'll settle down. 

Always the random, 

But when you got the bag 

The party never ends.