Scar

 I'm a elegant monster, 

A beautiful beast. 

With a wound that isn't a scar 

Cause it won't scar til it no longer bleeds.

The problem with a broken heart.

 All you want to do is give the world your heart.

Your problem is you don't know when to stop.

Another line of anxiety,

Trying to run away from how you feel,

The fire in your heart,

And the need to need.

The childish notion that she breaks the spell

And you can live happily ever after

Away from your own personal hell.

Just another notch and a broken heart,

Another reason, another non start.

And everyday feels like Monday. 

As every other night 

It's just the same old brand new you. 

Diet starts soon,

And the dark clouds won't move.

Lol na

 Noone belongs here more then you,

As I wonder who,

Chooses the steps to our dance.

Stories traded,

Turn to folklore and myth.

Chinese whispers,

And all the rest.

The he said she said,

They said,

It's honestly the truth.

Noone belongs here more then you.

Dusted

Blood sports

Weak hearts

Dancing alone in the dark.

Insomniac

Over thinker

Binge drinker

Pour extra gravy on my Sunday dinner.

Introvert

extrovert

Shy at first

But not scared, to be first on the dance floor.

Back sore

Knees too

But the dog needs walked

even though the rain will soak me through.

Dishes to do

House needs hoovered

And the weekend done and dusted. 

Help.

The call for one more is so buried deep

. I can't hear but I feel it.

 You guys still up?

: My nose is blocked: 

Anyone do a half

For 20

Over east

I started something

I should forget 

Texted girls I should of not

 Tears drop

So fuked

Men I fear not.

Dad I'll fight you.

But I still love you.

Mum maybe not the same. 

I'll beat you to you spit out teeth. 

It's near 2pm.

And I feel nothing.

 But heartbreak. 

AS much as I give away, 

I can't stop this pain. 

No one cares is a hard thing 

To take. 

To forget how much do I need to drink?

Another line as my nose drips. 

Alone.

 Close your eyes and count the stars, 

you've forgiven me a thousand times, 

And I'm going to miss a thousand 

Or more kisses your going 

To give someone else. 

 But tonight I don't think I can be saved 

The dark offers no release.

Especially as I can't sleep. 

Too weak, 

Another bag, 

In too deep. 

A fool for one more. 

No one calls here anymore. 

And when I look i can only steal glances,

Never handsome enough for second chances. 

A clown, 

My own worse enemy. 

Imagine hating on me, 

While I'm at home, 

Hating on me. 

The things a kid shouldn't see. 

The need to need. 

One more for the road? 

"One more" 

I say out loud. 

No one is listening in a empty house. 

Runny nose and work is soon. 

One more just to so you don't feel alone. 

No cure before bed.

I'm looking for a cure. 

To end this endless battle 

And try to win this war. 

But my mind has other ideas. 

It doesn't care or so it seems. 

It just wants the easy route, 

Which then destroy my dreams.

With debt and making it impossible 

To get out of bed.