One more?

 I licked the bag

So the fun is done.

But I don't feel numb,

I still can think.

Poured the last of the drink.

Not sure if it will do.

Stop me thinking,

And help me forget

What makes me blue.

It hurts,

And tomorrow it will hurt again to.

Lost,

And I don't know what to do?

The drugs don't work.

But lest they help me

Push through.

A amazing.

 Lost in a maze.

My own making.

Over thinking,

The drink and drugs

Don't numb the feeling

Long enough.

In my own head

I'm lost.

Wondering are we friends at all.

Would you catch me if I fall?

Clean my snotty nose.

I guess I'll never know.

I can't dance.

 I had been a peaceful man, but now I was caught in agitation.  I accidentally hurt myself with my own body, as if I were two clumsy people fighting.  I held on to some things to tightly, ripping pages as i turned them, and let go of other things too suddenly,  plates, breaking them.

Communication

 Honesty is in my bones,

I could never be fake.

I write the odd poem,

Yet I still find it hard to communicate. 

And hard it is to romanticize

The feeling of loneliness

As days get shorter 

And I find it harder to sleep. 

An eternal hunger

But I already had something to eat. 

Smile again.

 Just want to drink myself into oblivion.

Don't want to think again. 

Never wanted to play games. 

Just wanted people to like themselves. 

Just wanted to make someone smile again. 

I can't take away your pain. 

But I can understand 

Why you'll never feel the same. 

Empathy,

And your hurt hurts me. 

Cause I can't help. 

Nothing I say will make things change. 

Hi, how are you? 

Will never be able to help,

Words and actions 

Can't even scratch the surface. 

Everything is useless. 

Yeah you'll get through this. 

I just wish I could take your pain. 

So you could smile again. 

Scar

 I'm a elegant monster, 

A beautiful beast. 

With a wound that isn't a scar 

Cause it won't scar til it no longer bleeds.

The problem with a broken heart.

 All you want to do is give the world your heart.

Your problem is you don't know when to stop.

Another line of anxiety,

Trying to run away from how you feel,

The fire in your heart,

And the need to need.

The childish notion that she breaks the spell

And you can live happily ever after

Away from your own personal hell.

Just another notch and a broken heart,

Another reason, another non start.

And everyday feels like Monday. 

As every other night 

It's just the same old brand new you. 

Diet starts soon,

And the dark clouds won't move.