A Royal Wedding.....

My girlfriends sister had a big party for this, but disaster struck at the bbq when she fed a bone to the family dog (with whom she is very much in love with, and the dog is I must say very much in love with her. I have seen the way they carry on together and its not a sexy love but that's of two very close old friends, like two Granny's siting by the beach with there coats over there knees smiling at you as you pass) and it got it stuck in its throat.

Tho what I would like to know is did they keep the food going or what happened? As i recall making a great Sunday dinner once and my mother got a call that my aunt had breast cancer, and were my girlfriend thought we should stop I was all no way this is the greatest meal I have ever made.

You know?

Monday Blues in the battle you never win and always lose.

A enternal itch that i cant seem to get even close enought to scratch,
not even close to a perfect match.
Were to go to get away from everything thats wrong,
The need to stop with the fear of carrying on.
To close to the burn to near to the fire,
To far from the good times to even rember.
One cup of tea to many and its not even wednesday,
Fuck I hate Mondays.....

Daniel Johnson

Running water

Running water

Where are you running from?

I aint mad at cha.............

How funny a great week then you get to the two days your off and its all gray....

A Little Bit, mental....... !!!

I need to get away from the computer screen, the glare reminds me of better days, the light of the sun fillin my room as I woke from sleep, probly a good nights sleep at that unlike now days and the cronic insomnia..

But there is more to life then green tea by a computer screen.

You spend the better time of your working day wishin you wernt workin only for when you arnt workin to just do nothing.

I love Lykke li's music. She is mental check this vid of her just bein mental, to me that looks like a good saturday afternoon in the park fun!!

Same Old New..

Im tryin to make sense of life tho I feel i have fell by the wayside tryin to be something im not, its me now the head of the pack and on the hunt...

Strange for I used to be the hunted and now the competition grows ever more to the point I cant even try to ignore the feeling that is growing like a child taken its first steps only to fall and then there is the tears, but I am all cryed out from to many years. Tho not cold just havent got the tears, havent got the energy, havent got enought hours in the day, havent got the time nor piece of mind....

Etc, etc...............

Rabbit in Your Headlights!!!

My new boss is gay and while on my break he came in and said that he was cold, I asked was he tired as when you are tired you feel cold and feel sore as I have felt many times. He replyed "yea I didnt sleep well last night, I woke to find my boyfriend doin something disgusting!"

Now stright away I thought wankin!! but at the same time I was pretty taken back, my eyes growin big like a rabbit caught in the head lights. My mind went funny and I quickly said yea probly cause you are tired I get that, as to quickly change the subject...

Tho all this has left me worried I am a homaphobe, tho I feel I was shocked, but then I wonder if it had been a fella talkin about a girl who I have been all "OOhhh what was she doing?!?!?!" I dont know, i just hope it wont affect working relationships......

Weltschmerz

It is bad when the highlight of your day is a squwashed ham samwhich......


Sadly the job I started isnt the job I thought it would be......

Tho its only the first few days I dont think its going to change and this has left me feeling down as I am workin a 30 hour week and losen 10 hours pay also incuren the travel costs of £165 a month.....

I am not happy...