Lock in grab your posion...........

today as always could be either the first or last day of my life,

my world crumbles and shatters below her boot heels

sadly im a slave to the way she makes me feel,

i need it more then any drug,

a simple she agrees with me or a welcome hug.

though she wont be mine no she wont bring love,

all she does is darken the sky with dout

so i cant see past her and end up lost.

so im lookin for soemthing to replace that feelin,

fill my time and stop me thinkin.

so beg'in the hands of time to stop windin me up with their tick tlock. for every tick i lose her a little more

and for every tock she gets a little futher away from the moment.

For it i would travel,

willin to meet yet unwillin to admite defeat,

good sense of houmour,

but sadly it wont help.

hi,

you could break the black sky. but your not mine, to far away and not even a call could save me. i dont know why i must need tonight. the drink doesnt numb what this feelin realy is. and so i try and lie but i cant hide it from myself. my pride breaks when im alone, but its not enought and i cant break the black, cant crack the dark, i need and needs must, just one touch and i wait by the wayside till your alone. but thats not me so its me who is alone waitin like a dog for you to throw me a bone, its ok im just going about my day. and thats the way i feel tonight.

mixin pain killers as the sleepin tablets have ran out.

lookin for clues serchen for hints,
im down to deep in this muddy trench
lost in hope turnin into the night.
wrapen myself in clouds tight.
im lookin for the ones lost in battels past.
mixin pain killers to make ease and help with nights sleep.
but tonight im really in to deep............

maybe.

naked lady of my arm please lead me from harm,
little do i know your the cause of my disstrest,
i cant rest with the dream of you undressed by my side tonight.
i cant get enought and it isnt your fault, its my own greed i amit.
i cant help but want you, now but who wants me,
im lost at sea and the waves crash causen me to fall,
and tho it hurts me i cant seem to stay away.
your my worse moment and my better day.
but tonight your the evil which keeps me awake
and i cant sleep for thinkin what could be,
could i be for once happy?
take it on the chin tho, maken me think to fast tho,
great idear, tho you seem to be talkin less,
and this is leadin me to think more about what if?
so up and down i cant change the world alone.
im so far from home as the wave causes me to lose balance or was it the nightcap?
and sadly you wont be the one to help me back up.

HelpMe!

Im over the top,
its hard to stop,
its called the snowball effect,
and sadly its not really a laught.
im sorry i hurt you,
i realy fucked up.
jelous and angry at my own stupid self.
im runnin on empty.
i could be losen my mind,
and the thing which keeps me going
is rembern when she was mine.
but as it is it wont ease the pain,
and tonight i cant face the rain.
i work in a office, its to often to hot.
noone understands me, for it seems im now lost.
its a place called limbo and i need out,
but you could be my helpin hand,
but then again you wont.
and i could forget you,
but tbh your my last hope.
and im holdin on till everyone is gone,
cause everything i love is lost as if someones taken it away.
so what to do and were this ends well who can say?

another sorry story.

Noone can find u here,
lest not tonite. But i first have to sleep to find here,
but with little faith sadly i lose face, who is that in the mirror tonite?
hopefully me

And a teardrop falls and breaks into a million dimonds
each more beautifull then the last screamin stay with me,
lest let me not wake from this dream,
lest let me pretend,
lest let me hold on five minutes more!

touch me once more.

Its easy for you to say it hasnt gone wrong as you sit on your throne,

while i chew on old bones,

im so dry, im soo old.

so the ringin in my ears is gettin louder,

and the bed grows more uncomfertable,

im drinkin from a empty glass of water

which i supose is good as it doesnt matter if it spills.

i havent got the biggest volcably,

so it means i have have less words to say so much.

but words dont matter really as all i want is your touch.