So,

Well long time, hi how are you? Been hard going tbh, not so new job which I was happy in for 6 months, girlfriend who enjoyed a drink or two at the weekend, or well she is a alco if i am honest. and so up and down, double dose of the meds. no to much drinking or drugs. I don't know, I just cant seem to relax. Sure there is always tomorrow.

lets dance.

So blood tests came back, nothing wrong there! I am starting to believe it is maybe just me, my fault...

Holding on

So going to get more blood tests, hopefully get sorted and no longer feel so tired. it is very hard when it just seems a pain the hole to move.

why oh why.

I fantasize for what cant be with who isnt for me with a need to see how wonderful life could be if only I could throw caution to wind, and not worry about such unimportant things. But its to close to the bone to be to far from home, the gentalman you left out side for the cold to freeze needs to leave and finaly stand up for to stop such wrong doing. But with a slap to the wrist im stuck thinkin who is this could it honestly rly be me?

hope it will be ok.

Need to put the action in plan, for someone to take me by the hand and guide me right, but i cant even be bothered to do the dishies tonight and if thats as low as i go then how can i ever be right...

mybe some time off will help.

Can't resist the itch as the temptress plays her greatest hits,
and it could of been my baby
but maybe there is a time and place for the clown,
and im chasein me to catch the bastard and make him see,
this joke isnt funny any more.

Settle for lost love

Always on the run, summer with out sun,
could you be the glue to hold me in place ready for the kill,
Ready for the firing squad to shoot at will.
Generation x settled for second best,
3 bedrooms semi detached and a rain cloud with out a view.
A need to be someone else
With only a soul destroyin 9 to 5 for less then the rent,
heaven sent
and a ever growin fear that you'll always be alone a little to far from home