Eye to Eye

(in)complete strangers, dancing away our pain, drunk off laughter and naive off heart, you to me are a reason for this beating heart. and unlovable as i may seem, i still dream and i still move and dance with you like in a dream, stop to kiss you like lovers on the screen. for tonight i've have drank enough to forget my sins and my ills. and i don't hear the screams of past lovers jealousy forget the world and be bold enough to hold you close to me, eye to eye there is no other, hold you close enough in hope to discover, a single heart beat...

back were i started at...

Losing battle winning war, the disappointment that keeps on giving. The little things and every sliver lining has a cloud. While everyday leaves you a little less, a weekend away with no sun. late nights, red lights and the need to need someone

no need.

trying to hold on, trying to be right. Though wrong keeps me up in the middle of the night, my head a buzz thinking of what was. and knowing it will never be again. i walk in a cloud, to much to soon every morning the alarm sounds of doom. what can i do but get up. the feelings dont let up, but i guess that is life and life is what you make it.

What difference does it make?

life is a funny old game. sometimes people often push there will apon you trying to make you do what they wish not knowing what goes on behind closed doors as you try and breath, while every breath hurts your chest. it isn't easy. it isn't getting better............

Stress

Stress comes and stress goes, trying to stand on my two feet all my life. To much to fear to marry a wife, just need time alone. but it is ok isn't it?? I mean we can just pretend this isn't the end. hanging on my the tips of your fingers waiting just waiting to be saved?! just wishing for more.. maybe it is time to just stand on my own two feet.

tonight, tomorrow night and the next night.

The night filled with dread, Better not said, Better not know, If only sleep would ease Instead a 100 thoughts

Attack and leave me low

So,

Well long time, hi how are you? Been hard going tbh, not so new job which I was happy in for 6 months, girlfriend who enjoyed a drink or two at the weekend, or well she is a alco if i am honest. and so up and down, double dose of the meds. no to much drinking or drugs. I don't know, I just cant seem to relax. Sure there is always tomorrow.