Feelin the end close i lose count, time isnt on my side nor by my side. im alone as always the screen lightin the dark, but not my heart, to long in the cold has made me cold. to old to pretend this will end, things willl get better. nothing ventured nothing gained. im lost in a world of black and feel nothing but pain. it takes my breath it feels like death, its fucked up and i feel i have nothing left. slipin in rivers deep, knifes cut and blood leaks. we could be, you could save. but im not brave enought to fight to find you. im a loser and you can see right through me. ignor me, use me, i need you and to be lost by your side, more then a ride more then before, im sure i can hold on and pretend i never need anymore.

but,

i do, i need so much more and its not you. infact laught out loud, who are you? the devil on my shoulder, im so much older then wise, and still with every fuck up its a surpize, help me out of my wet clothes tonight, i need to help myself i need to fight. but im tired and worn down. high notes and strings keep me from losen, and my final thought isnt worth the brain its thought with but thats ok,

or is it?

who the fuck am i tonight? im so lost i cant fight, so with no fight left the light flickers the end get so much nearer. please dry those tears my dear. we seen it comin but you cant help, and as much as i wish i could reach out, i cant. im just passin time get lower and lower, deeper and deeper. the one who got away is my still flame, its my blame, with out aim who could i be?

five more minutes. promise.

Staren at the sun from the bottem of the river, i could feel my last breath leave me.

i could say i felt calm but i haver never known that feeling in my life so i couldnt tell you thats what this feelin was.

and so this stone round my neck sinks deeper then i ever could. but tho thats not to say i wouldnt. well how could you tell what depths you could sink to?

so the sun is like a gold ring, and i chase it for hours, its just out of reach, just a little to far.

five more minuites. just five more...................

so the bottem of the river was suddlen dark. it was on fire with not so much as a goodbye, and still the stone sank. deeper and down. and i left all i loved behind, for it was what i had to do. all i could do, for if you love something you have to let it go, and i let go of you.

no0, five more minutes, just five more, please, five more minutessssss......

i never really known love, never knew my father, my mother worked long hours, or well they seemed long when your young and the world is so new. but thats what can happenin. they take of the love you once knew.

late again fuck sake.

You are the one who got away its ok to like.

if love can make you, then love can break you, and its all i can do.

but tell you over and over again, that its you, its you.............


its you.............................................

your face reminds me of the one who got away and you may wonder how she got away,
well im not the man i wish i was and i let her slip throught fingers the night before.
let the pack lead me, thinkin i missin the best times, but those times were rought,
those times were shit, tbh i was better off in a warm bed insted of dark nights.
but who would of guessed and you remind me of her, she could be you..

you are the one who got away its ok to like.

yea im sound, im just worried about you, and how it would of affect you it bein mine

i often wonder bout a little lady, or even a boy, but it jsut isnt me, you see i bearly take care of myself, i can bearly tell the time after to many bottles, i can hardly make it to work with out hittin the five past mark, im not a father figer im more a loose cannon wishin i was someone else but what the haps, its crazy the best bit of me ran down my mothers leg.

Im not keepin it.

Lins says:
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E jnr says:
hi,

Lins says:
i am not willing to lose robin

E jnr says:
yea i know,

E jnr says:
thats good

Lins says:
r u ok

E jnr says:
yea im sound, im just worried about you, and how it would of affect you it bein mine

Lins says:
there is no way i could have taken that risk

E jnr says:
aye thats cool

Lins says:
the only thing that is worrying me is robin is on msn and u can find him and tell him

E jnr says:
na i wouldnt want to tell him

E jnr says:
iam sayin nothing

Lins says:
y not
E jnr says:

because its none of my bussness, outo f my hands, im not comin between you two, so im standin back.

E jnr says:
you know,

Lins says:
did u want it

E jnr says:
no, i cant even manage to look after myself, i couldnt look after a child

Lins says:
we r going to manchester

Lins says:
its costing nearly 1000

E jnr says:
wouldl ondon not be easyer?

Lins says:
dont know

E jnr says:
you sould check out for london

Lins says:
im really sorry

E jnr says:
no need its ok

Fluoxetine 20mg part 2.

I'ed sell the confusen on ebay,
give away my darker days and atlest try to forget my past.
but it seems you got me, and when i look i can only glance.
so im taken my time, but your fed up waitin.
and i would hurry up, but i dont know were it is you are.
so im tryin to light the dark,
but its with a heavy heart because the past still hurts.
im tryin to forget the bad days and rember how the good used to feel.
i can do it, i can be the mess so i can be the man im sure i can.
so i listen to the songs on repeat as i repeat
"its jsut another day and another step"
but when i look at you i can only glance.
so i feel the fear and run off for i dont trust chance.
with all the burgeoning feelings and confused emotions of a young adolescent
i could be 16 again when i talk to you....

Fluoxetine 20mg part 1.

I wonder do you see me step out of your way as you pass each day. I could be a dick, i was there first but fuck it i just move and let you pass undistubed.

I go crazy, two buttions undone insted of one, this is what the weekend is all about isnt it?