Sorry for being me

There goes my fun.

Last line done.

Sniffing in hope

To cling on

To the last of the high

The last of the fun.

Don't want to check

My bank balance.

Don't want to turn

the music off.

Monday is getting closer,

And so are my problems.

The sniff eased it

If but for a moment.

I didn't have to be me.

Alone with the dog

I pretend I'm someone else.

Sending messages off

That tomorrow I'll wish wasn't me.

Telling people I love them.

But only for them to disagree.

For love is too much,

And my cup is overflowing

So can't wait to share.

But everyone is suspicious,

Because life is never fair.

Preying to god

God don't like ugly,

It was written. 

Only the beautiful get into heaven. 

I'm sure when I prey 

He doesn't listen. 

Being alone isn't promised freedom. 

Trying gets hard, 

And then I prey to God 

Share pain

 It's been nice getting to know you

You've been a pleasent surprise.

I'm just about to call k cabs 

For the 5th time.

This beer is getting flat,

And the sun is starting to shine

It's been a great night to share 

Out Trauma over buckfast wine.

God

What if God don't love me?

I'm too complex.

He doesn't listen when

I pray,

All wtf is this?

Doesn't get the joke.

Doesn't understand.

Doesn't listen

When I pray,

Doesn't care for my problems.

Doesn't want to lend a helping hand.

Doesn't care for my tears.

Doesn't hear me

When I'm preying for better days. 

What if God doesn't care for the weak?

If yoy aren't good enough,

Then he doesn't hear when you speak.

What if God doesn't care if yoy are kind?

He just wants you to believe,

And as long as you say sorry

He doesn't mind.

What if God doesn't look after 

All the kids?

Doesn't hear when they

Ask for help with

Abuse and a end to

Hurt that they face.

What if God isn't all we have been told?

I mean the devil let's you in

And doesn't make you

Have to believe in the unknown.

Doesn't make you say sorry.

Or make you believe.

You can come in

As you be.

Npc

 Npc

Vessel in vain,

Can you be human

With out a heart

Or brain?

Doesn't care

If isn't white.

2 weeks in Spain,

Chips as a side every night.

Would even try the local beer.

They are Scared to dance,

Cause they might be seen as qu33r.

Haven't cried since primary school,

And won't ever,

Because the soulless don't cry.

How can you love when you are empty inside?

Good

 Who's still partying?

Cause I'm wrecked.

It was a good run,

But life catches up,

And your dues need to be collected.

Cheating is eating,

And we are runing out of fegs.

The light weights are gone,

Only the true heavyweights left.

The stereo seems out of sorts.

Dail a drink unfortunately don't supply antidepressants.

I should of left,

But I love the madness.

We are all the same

 Everybody struggles,

But not everybody says.

If I could, I'd love to light your dark days.

Chase the bad thoughts away.

But Sunday comes too quick,

And Monday is every other day.

The blues make it hard to breath.

The pursuit of happiness,

In the worse way,

Everyone a friend,

Til the come down appears.

Then the Sunday darkness,

The Monday fear.

Call a taxi I'm out of here.