Friday, 20 March 2026

Maybe dream

 And you're tryna get atmosphere
Like she was here, but she's long gone
Like Rocky Balboa and Adrian
Tears drop while vou sip on your medicine. 
You'll sleep tonight son. 
No dreams, 
While you grind your teeth. 
Need to make peace. 
But the scar won't heal. 
And how do those memories feel? 
Odd one out, 
Alone, 
Feeling like your talking another language 
That noone knows. 
Scared to blow your nose. 
Those old ghosts
Still hunt ya. 
Mother who couldn't love herself, 
So how could she love you? 
A need to need someone, 
Who needs you. 
But love doesn't work 
It takes two. 
Hold on, 
To avoid drowning. 
Nothing else 
So hold it tight. 
It keeps you afloat. 
The thought that someone 
Could or might, 
Think your alright. 
That keeps your head 
Above water, 
A reason to keep up the fight. 
And maybe you might dream tonight.

Sunday, 15 March 2026

The right path.

 I honestly don't know how this came to be. Or what it was lead to this moment. But I need to get help. I just don't know how. 

The nigh

 The night never starts 
when you're alone and know noone. 
 One more for the road 
Before I face the cold. 
 And every noise is too much, 
as every face reminds me of her, 
Asked do have any spare change? 
Do I pull rose petals from my pocket 
I was keeping for her 
to give to the homeless but they don't care.

Monday, 9 March 2026

Another day

 Point 4,
Verses my overdraft 
Credit card and more. 
The dogs fed and walked, 
Enough tea bags 
For me to ignore. 
My nose sore. 
My sleep isn't what it was. 
And my personality isn't what it 
Used to be. 
I can't find peace. 
Can't focus and watch TV. 
Can't be bothered, 
Can't find the joy in the simple things. 
So another point 4 
Just another day. 
The months blur 
And it seems just another day. 

Can't trust a broken heart.

 Farewell to goodbyes, not a dry eye, 
and not to mention, 
but I needed to console the soul.  
So I let you in, and the world changed. 
It was mine for a moment, 
though that moment is never enough. 
So im waking on someone else's floor 
Waking in someone else's bed. 
wishing for more then lust. 
But what happens 
When your own heart
you can't trust?

Saturday, 7 March 2026

1998

 Choose life,
Messing around in school,
Big tvs,
and stereos to.
Minimum wage
Large meals at McDonald's.
Chicken burgers.
Who's round is it?
Someone phone to see
How long the taxi will be?
Friends, girls, music and
A injoke or two.
Playstation fifa.
Finger guns pointing at each other
Across many a dance floor
Not knowing how life was so short.
The party doesn't last forever. 
And egos are careless, 
While friendships are fragile. 
Chinese whispers, 
And he said, she said, they said
Nobody is right in the end. 
A life less ordinary,
Lived via weekends and paydays.
Put your money away 
I got paid, 
It's not alot but we should be okay. 

Friday, 27 February 2026

Trance and romance

 Trance and romance,
My sweetheart the drunk.
My memories my torture.
A pint of gin to try and numb,
I forgot myself and smiled.
The sky wasn't so grey.
And you only die once,
But you live everyday