Cause I'm a

Last of the beer,

Gear. 

I welcome the fear. 

My nose sore. 

Cause I'm a 

Proud

 Is it okay to cry now?

Sore nose and alone now. 

The blinds are open but no one will care

Now.

One more, 

Just to ease me. 

Should take the dog to bed

So he can sleep more easy. 

But one more, 

Just to make the tears 

Worth while. 

One more just to make my dad proud. 

One more.

 When your one mores are all empty.

The bag is licked and everything is done. 

The dog is fuking raging, 

He wanted to go to bed. 

But you just wanted to feel 

Like life was worth it. 

A reason to keep keeping on 

No one answering back. 

And your nose is sore. 

Still in your mind, 

You can't help think 

One more. 

Life oh life

 They stole the laugher from our kids

The milk from their lips. 

Taxed their joy. 

Before they turned the poor on the poor, 

And got them both together to hate

Those that are even more poor. 

And taxed them some more. 

Stole people's imaginations, 

With movies filled with lies. 

TV and media saying 

You are ugly, fat and unliked.

But they always got a solution. 

And it comes with a price. 

The latest product 

That will make you 

Fit in and be someone everyone will like. 

Dreams sold at a high price. 

Happiness that is just out of reach. 

So fill the void with sugar, 

Or something else 

That makes it bearable to live. 

You look like the sparkle in your eyes have dimmed

The empty bottles

Fill the bin,

And fill me with embarrassment. 

Can't wait to bin day,

Til the bin is empty

And so is my embarrassment. 

You don't think you could be an addict. 

Then all of a sudden it's everyday. 

You can't be bothered watching TV. 

Reading books or things

That you used to love, 

For they get in the way. 

You stop looking at your bank balance. 

It just gets in the way. 

And you don't get to far 

When walking the dog, 

As you'll need something

That will numb 

What you can't fix, 

The thing that won't go away. 

The sleepless nights don't help. 

And work gets in the way. 

Sometimes things feel normal. 

And you are scared 

Because you get carried away. 

The doctors can't help you. 

Another blood test 

And that says you're okay. 

But I can't be bothered, 

And that grows in its own way. 

The little things, 

Drives and adventures. 

Nights out and new recipes. 

Movies and new books. 

Now just lines and is the shop closed, 

Cause I always need. 

Always need one more. 

Always on my mind. 

One to help me sleep, 

The other to stop the sadness in my mind. 

Spud

 I'm a fool gale,

To think love is enough.

Because the thing about

People like me,

Well we will always

Be lost.

We were lost as a child.

Lost in day dreams,

A place we didn't need to hide.

And I know I'm an embarrassment

To young Fergus.

I can never get it right.

Can't grow out of this

Mind frame,

Head space,

Can't outgrow or put to rest

The trauma and abuse

Of youth.

I always get it wrong gale,

I'm not use.

I'm only holding you back,

An embarrassment to say the lest.

I can't tame this animal,

Hunted by a dark beast.

The uppers and downers

Can numb for only so long.

But I always have to return.

And it gets no better,

Just seems worse.

The sadness of my mother's eyes

When she caught me

Stealing from her purse.

You're both better off with out me.

Then you can try and forget the worse.

Just please when you think off me,

Don't think of the worse.

Coming up

 I feel silent tears

As I'm making it to the counter

In the shop

Buying beers. 

No cheers, 

No pats on the back. 

The only way is down, 

And the possibility 

I won't be able this time

To get back up.

I'm hurting, 

And hurting more then just me. 

The dog gives me sad eyes. 

While I feel woe is me. 

My worse foe is me. 

My days tired 

from 

Over thinking.

No longer binge drinking. 

I just spread it out

Through out the week. 

It takes everything not 

To call in sick. 

Everything it takes 

Just not to give up. 

Just to get in the shower 

Just got to keep it together, 

It's near the weekend 

And payday is coming up.