Thursday, 16 February 2017

She's the glue that holds the family together.

All the feelings I feel I can't give them away, I feel like a broken arrow that's been thrown away. Time was never kind, No time never healed the hurt. The sun shines when I'm hungover When I'm really needing her. A broken down clown, Not even a painted on smile can save the day. I wanna tell people how I feel But it just drives them away. So i tell who ever the truth, Isn't a big deal just please don't get close. Because it feels like I hurt the closest the most. So she steals the sky and the grey equals doom. I can't get to far from my bed Stuck in a cycle that I need to break out. Drown by my own bad thoughts of my own awful doubt. I can do better, I can make it through the day. But the bed is always waiting for me with nothing to say. So I lay and can't sleep. Tossing and turning as I get deep. Need to let go, as I grown to old to run. But sometimes all you need is a dander in the sun.

Tuesday, 6 December 2016

If you don't do it I will.

Always a stranger in a strange place, On a knife blade And I'm the one pushing myself off the edge. Troubled by self doubt, Too much time alone, To scared to let it out, But I can't leave it alone. I would follow my dreams But then, I can't sleep, And it's the same merry go round When I'm weak. Burnt myself one time to many, Now I don't warm myself by the fire, Na I learnt to stay away. And my yoke is heavy Or maybe I just got carried away Chasing shadows When will I learn, Sadly like a candle, To shine I have to burn. And melted, as the older I get The more ghosts hunt the bed. And it doesn't really matter, Just forget everything I said.

Thursday, 17 November 2016

I'm dying to live...

My sweetheart the drunk. My darling are you calling? The push and shove, The day today, The feelings you tried to hide, But never went away. More then a inch, She would steal your smile, Leave you waiting, While you hit redial. But it's not you it's me, It's intense, It's over the top, It's a new shirt and your hair done, It's something you can't live without. I tried it believe me, But I can never get too far. Hit the wrong buttons, Just to try to get to know you more. But that is the wrong thing to do, Everyone knows you need to be cruel. Kindness doesn't pay the rent, And your already in the red, The deep end of the pool drowning. And again I've said too much. And again it isn't that spark, Isn't that feeling. And all the other reasons.

Saturday, 12 November 2016

repost?

What ever happens I love you, tho I cant find the words to tell you. And that's my mistake. The family pet left to die, i cant help but live a sigh, Every sliver lining has a cloud, And i am to needy for love, To narrow minded for such things as us, The last of the great romantics you wouldnt believe my antics, I killed the best of times with the worse off mind, Some people are born leaders well i was born sorry. And tonight my dear I'm sorry you had to feel the burn.

Tuesday, 8 November 2016

BigBrother1999

Why so short? Why so sad? Why is it always bad I seem to have? Why doesn't the sun follow the rain? Why are the days grey and always the same? It's funny sweetheart in my sleep I've been, Calling out your name. But the answers are always the same. And in my mind, I do it all different, But the end it's always the same.

The end of the end

I'm looking for a cure. To end this endless battle And try to win this war. But my mind has other ideas. It doesn't care or so it seems. It just wants the easy route To destroy all my dreams.

Tuesday, 18 October 2016

Still something I should try.

I was thinking about over thinking at night And how I can't sleep, Thinking what could of been, What should of been And what could or should I of changed. Too many memories, So many of the worst. Pains me to think and try and recall loved ones and my favourite moments with them, And how would they see me now, How have I changed? Better or worse, Still rocking and trying to chip away at the curse. Some days I feel I'm getting there, others well it could be a worse.